miss maddy

while I am thrilled at the prospect of going back to where we were to bring home the girls, I really want to bring home Maddy. I want her to be my own. just like My Sophie. She isnt in the same place as the girls though. it hurts my heart to think of leaving ANY Of them behind. but Miss Madeline is such a darling thing. and she needs a mama too. but how could I think about leaving our girls there knowing they wont hve a home or future. feeling torn.